Well I've had a pretty shitty past week or so. Actually, it's been a week to the day. Last Saturday, I was babysitting, and we had a black-out. Now, I don't like black-outs under normal circumstances. But a black-out in a strangers huge ass creepy old house? I freaked the fuck out. And when I say freaked out, I mean freaked out. Like, I had a fucking massive panic attack and ended up passing out in there house. I don't remember much after that, only that I woke up home (So I assume they brought me home)

That's where it all started. I got really fucking sick after that. Dizzy, weak, pale, cold, heart palpation's, yellowish-eyes. I ended up spending Sunday in bed, and had another panic attack Monday. Jou took me to the hospital after that. They ran some tests, hooked me to oxygen, kept me over night, and sent me home.

Got the test results yesterday. I have a severe case of Anemia. I mean, what the fuck? I'm fucking seventeen and I feel like my god damned life is ruined. I have to have fucking blood transfusions and I'm scared shitless. I don't want to do it. I really don't. But I'm going to.

Oh, for those that don't know what Anemia is, wiki says this: Anemia (pronounced /əˈniːmiə/, also spelled anaemia or anæmia; from Ancient Greek ἀναιμία anaimia, meaning "lack of blood") is a decrease in normal number of red blood cells (RBCs) or less than the normal quantity of hemoglobin in the blood.[1][2] However, it can include decreased oxygen-binding ability of each hemoglobin molecule due to deformity or lack in numerical development as in some other types of hemoglobin deficiency.

Since hemoglobin (found inside RBCs) normally carries oxygen from the lungs to the tissues, anemia leads to hypoxia (lack of oxygen) in organs. Since all human cells depend on oxygen for survival, varying degrees of anemia can have a wide range of clinical consequences.

The three main classes of anemia include excessive blood loss (acutely such as a hemorrhage or chronically through low-volume loss), excessive blood cell destruction (hemolysis) or deficient red blood cell production (ineffective hematopoiesis).

Anemia is the most common disorder of the blood. There are several kinds of anemia, produced by a variety of underlying causes. Anemia can be classified in a variety of ways, based on the morphology of RBCs, underlying etiologic mechanisms, and discernible clinical spectra, to mention a few.

There are two major approaches: the "kinetic" approach which involves evaluating production, destruction and loss[3], and the "morphologic" approach which groups anemia by red blood cell size. The morphologic approach uses a quickly available and cheap lab test as its starting point (the MCV). On the other hand, focusing early on the question of production may allow the clinician more rapidly to expose cases where multiple causes of anemia coexist.

So thur you go...Uhm...Wish me luck I guess?